On this day of your life, Amber, we believe God wants you to know ... that true faith flowers from and through doubt.
If you never questioned your beliefs, - you are just a puppet dancing to somebody's strings. If God had wanted your mindless obedience, you would've been created without mind and without free will. But you have both so you can come to God of your own accord. Just look at the lives of saints, - most of them had gone through a dark night of the soul, and that's why their faith was so strong. The path to true faith always goes through doubt. So ask those questions you've always been afraid to ask, and find the answers, and then your faith will become unshakable.
Today I starteed my new job. Today Kayla asked me about God
It's been an amazing day thank u for bringing me to this place in my life I love you and want to serve u with my heart and soul. Remember me, amber your servant.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
imprinted.
im·print (m-prnt)
tr.v. im·print·ed, im·print·ing, im·prints
1. To produce (a mark or pattern) on a surface by pressure.
2. To produce a mark on (a surface) by pressure.
3. To impart a strong or vivid impression of: "We imprint our own ideas onto acts" (Ellen Goodman).
4. To fix firmly, as in the mind: He tried to imprint the number on his memory.
5. To modify (a gene) by chemical means.
n. (mprnt)
1. A mark or pattern produced by imprinting. See Synonyms at impression.
2. A distinguishing influence or effect: Spanish architecture that shows the imprint of Islamic rule.
3. A publisher's name, often with the date, address, and edition, printed at the bottom of a title page of a publication.
tr.v. im·print·ed, im·print·ing, im·prints
1. To produce (a mark or pattern) on a surface by pressure.
2. To produce a mark on (a surface) by pressure.
3. To impart a strong or vivid impression of: "We imprint our own ideas onto acts" (Ellen Goodman).
4. To fix firmly, as in the mind: He tried to imprint the number on his memory.
5. To modify (a gene) by chemical means.
n. (mprnt)
1. A mark or pattern produced by imprinting. See Synonyms at impression.
2. A distinguishing influence or effect: Spanish architecture that shows the imprint of Islamic rule.
3. A publisher's name, often with the date, address, and edition, printed at the bottom of a title page of a publication.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
yeeeee?
On this day of your life, Amber, we believe God wants you to know ... that you deserve happiness just because.
There is nothing you need to do to deserve happiness. There are no 'minimal requirements' for you to fulfill before you can claim happiness. You deserve happiness simply by virtue of having been born. That's it. Nothing more is required. Be happy.
There is nothing you need to do to deserve happiness. There are no 'minimal requirements' for you to fulfill before you can claim happiness. You deserve happiness simply by virtue of having been born. That's it. Nothing more is required. Be happy.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
brittany faye.
my sister is living in the chico area.
i moved out of bucks house.
this weekend.
on easter.
i was alone he went out of town to LA and i thought it was the only time that i could get away from him. he comes back tonight...
in the last few days i have felt so alive. i am so reall brittttnaaay i miss you this is the real me! the chains are broken. they are gone. this is what God has planned for me to be. this is what God has always wanted for me and i have put myself thru HELL on earth i made if for myself. but this is my life...... my amazing movie life story.
and its okay. its made me who i am today. look at me now. i can reach so many people and not be afraid or be ashamed because i am real AND I AM A DAUGHTER OF THE KING. AND IT IS GOOD.
I KNOW WHY GOD SAID: AND IT WAS GOOD.
BECAUSE WHEN IT IS GOOD. ITS SO GOOD.
thankfully i am moving in with my old roomates. with Krista and Shelly they also go to mosiac. i never see you at church i usually go to the 11 i think you go to a different service. i really am excited of this latest service about the supernatural. i have subject myself to things that were never planned out for me... but i know so much. i wish that i could explain it to you.
i am so happy. i really am. everything that i have been thru everything that was so hard all of the pain and heartache britttany i know that you have witnessed it in my life it was sooooo real. and it has made me who i am today. and i am PROUD TO BE ME>
for once in my life. always love you.
side note. i was hanging out with sean and dill.
on april 25 life cycle. enuff said.
i moved out of bucks house.
this weekend.
on easter.
i was alone he went out of town to LA and i thought it was the only time that i could get away from him. he comes back tonight...
in the last few days i have felt so alive. i am so reall brittttnaaay i miss you this is the real me! the chains are broken. they are gone. this is what God has planned for me to be. this is what God has always wanted for me and i have put myself thru HELL on earth i made if for myself. but this is my life...... my amazing movie life story.
and its okay. its made me who i am today. look at me now. i can reach so many people and not be afraid or be ashamed because i am real AND I AM A DAUGHTER OF THE KING. AND IT IS GOOD.
I KNOW WHY GOD SAID: AND IT WAS GOOD.
BECAUSE WHEN IT IS GOOD. ITS SO GOOD.
thankfully i am moving in with my old roomates. with Krista and Shelly they also go to mosiac. i never see you at church i usually go to the 11 i think you go to a different service. i really am excited of this latest service about the supernatural. i have subject myself to things that were never planned out for me... but i know so much. i wish that i could explain it to you.
i am so happy. i really am. everything that i have been thru everything that was so hard all of the pain and heartache britttany i know that you have witnessed it in my life it was sooooo real. and it has made me who i am today. and i am PROUD TO BE ME>
for once in my life. always love you.
side note. i was hanging out with sean and dill.
on april 25 life cycle. enuff said.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
the script
She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart
While i'm drinking jack all alone in my local bar
And we don't know how we got into this mad situation
Only doing things out of frustration
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
She needs me now but I can't seem to find a time
I've got a new job now in the unemployment line
And we don't know how we got into this mess it's a gods test
Someone help us cause we're doing our best
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
But we're gonna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tearsEven after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time
She's in line at the door with her head held high
While I just lost my job but didn't lose my flight
But we both know how we're gonna make it work when it hurts
When you pick yourself up you get kicked in the dirt
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
But we're gonna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
The Script For The First Time lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/the-script-for-the-first-time-lyrics.html
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time
Drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these yearsWe just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first timeFor the first time
Oh, for the first time
Yeah, for the first time
Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby
Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby
Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby
Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby
While i'm drinking jack all alone in my local bar
And we don't know how we got into this mad situation
Only doing things out of frustration
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
She needs me now but I can't seem to find a time
I've got a new job now in the unemployment line
And we don't know how we got into this mess it's a gods test
Someone help us cause we're doing our best
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
But we're gonna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tearsEven after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time
She's in line at the door with her head held high
While I just lost my job but didn't lose my flight
But we both know how we're gonna make it work when it hurts
When you pick yourself up you get kicked in the dirt
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
But we're gonna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
The Script For The First Time lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/the-script-for-the-first-time-lyrics.html
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time
Drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these yearsWe just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first timeFor the first time
Oh, for the first time
Yeah, for the first time
Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby
Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby
Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby
Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Martha
Good afternoon, family and friends.
It is an honor to be here today to celebrate the life of Martha Mederos.
To my sister and I, she was our Aunt, our “Tia Martha”. To my Father, she was “always there”, but to my Grandmother, Martha’s sister, she was the world.
Martha would drop everything she was doing to run to your side or take care of anyone and anything you ever needed.
She was born into a family of 11 children. Martha was a very beautiful girl and she was so special.
Her skin was so appealing and she had a radiant and welcoming smile. Her father used to say,
”she had the most beautiful color that never fades.” She truly had beautiful complexion on the inside and out.—
My Tia was a strong woman. Martha attended beauty school and she married at a young age. She was an example. She survived her husband who suffered heart surgery and died on the operation table. They were married for twenty years together before his death and he blessed her with four loving children. Her strength doubled at the death when her youngest daughter died due to Lupus; a chronic autoimmune disease that damages the inside of the body. But she never gave up. She never backed down. She was a leader; she was strong for the rest of the family even with her Husband and daughter gone. She helped raise her granddaughters and was always a mother figure.
The bond between my grandmother and my aunt was always present. She loved to visit; she would say to my grandmother, “with you I feel good, I feel happy I don’t have to worry about anything when I’m with you.” Martha loved to cook. My grandmother told me, when my father was little she would cook for him. “Today we are going to cook whatever Armando wants to eat!” That was her attitude towards life. She always had a positive attitude and loved everyone. She flew several times from Guadalajara. Take care of us at a moment’s notice when times were hard. She demonstrated love. My aunt had a sense of humor; she was kind she was very much a hard worker always working extra for my grandmother even when she repeatedly said “no”.
Last year my Grandparents went and had a little getaway to our timeshare in Puerto Vallarta and Guadalajara to visit my family. Just like always they stayed at my Tia’s house. Her door was always open to the whole family sleepovers all the time with the cousins. Her house was always filled with laughter never a moment of silence even up to the hour at 2 in the morning.
They stayed a total of four weeks together, enjoying each other’s company and little trips to the mall. Things they loved to do together.
Unexpectly, the day before my grandparents left to go back to San Francisco my aunt died surrounded by family in my grandmothers arms. She died in her sisters arms. A bond so close between sisters that lasted until the very last moments of Martha’s life. Until her last breath was taken.
I never had a full conversation with my Tia. Although we did not speak the same language, I never talked to her about the weather, or simple thing she loves or little things about her.
But I can say that Martha Medero’s strength, love and compassion was evident her entire life in her actions. She “walked the walk” so to speak. The bond that she had with my grandmother is something I will always aspire to the rest of my life.
While on the phone with my Grandmother she said, “ I think about her everyday and I don’t understand why my sister is gone away, she only says, “God knows when he takes you”
Martha Mederos would want us to mirror images of her heart. And she will live in our hearts forever.
Thank you all for coming.
It is an honor to be here today to celebrate the life of Martha Mederos.
To my sister and I, she was our Aunt, our “Tia Martha”. To my Father, she was “always there”, but to my Grandmother, Martha’s sister, she was the world.
Martha would drop everything she was doing to run to your side or take care of anyone and anything you ever needed.
She was born into a family of 11 children. Martha was a very beautiful girl and she was so special.
Her skin was so appealing and she had a radiant and welcoming smile. Her father used to say,
”she had the most beautiful color that never fades.” She truly had beautiful complexion on the inside and out.—
My Tia was a strong woman. Martha attended beauty school and she married at a young age. She was an example. She survived her husband who suffered heart surgery and died on the operation table. They were married for twenty years together before his death and he blessed her with four loving children. Her strength doubled at the death when her youngest daughter died due to Lupus; a chronic autoimmune disease that damages the inside of the body. But she never gave up. She never backed down. She was a leader; she was strong for the rest of the family even with her Husband and daughter gone. She helped raise her granddaughters and was always a mother figure.
The bond between my grandmother and my aunt was always present. She loved to visit; she would say to my grandmother, “with you I feel good, I feel happy I don’t have to worry about anything when I’m with you.” Martha loved to cook. My grandmother told me, when my father was little she would cook for him. “Today we are going to cook whatever Armando wants to eat!” That was her attitude towards life. She always had a positive attitude and loved everyone. She flew several times from Guadalajara. Take care of us at a moment’s notice when times were hard. She demonstrated love. My aunt had a sense of humor; she was kind she was very much a hard worker always working extra for my grandmother even when she repeatedly said “no”.
Last year my Grandparents went and had a little getaway to our timeshare in Puerto Vallarta and Guadalajara to visit my family. Just like always they stayed at my Tia’s house. Her door was always open to the whole family sleepovers all the time with the cousins. Her house was always filled with laughter never a moment of silence even up to the hour at 2 in the morning.
They stayed a total of four weeks together, enjoying each other’s company and little trips to the mall. Things they loved to do together.
Unexpectly, the day before my grandparents left to go back to San Francisco my aunt died surrounded by family in my grandmothers arms. She died in her sisters arms. A bond so close between sisters that lasted until the very last moments of Martha’s life. Until her last breath was taken.
I never had a full conversation with my Tia. Although we did not speak the same language, I never talked to her about the weather, or simple thing she loves or little things about her.
But I can say that Martha Medero’s strength, love and compassion was evident her entire life in her actions. She “walked the walk” so to speak. The bond that she had with my grandmother is something I will always aspire to the rest of my life.
While on the phone with my Grandmother she said, “ I think about her everyday and I don’t understand why my sister is gone away, she only says, “God knows when he takes you”
Martha Mederos would want us to mirror images of her heart. And she will live in our hearts forever.
Thank you all for coming.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
chico
wow this is my 100th time writing.
undo
me
mistakes
ry
babys room
gym
study girls
back
forth
love
good
food
sad
chico
dance
twice
auditions
accomplished
true
love
home
school
future...
undo
me
mistakes
ry
babys room
gym
study girls
back
forth
love
good
food
sad
chico
dance
twice
auditions
accomplished
true
love
home
school
future...
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