i miss you.
i hate myself for some of the choices that i have made.
i just want to say screw it.
i want my past back.
i cant get back to the place with you.
it kills me. and
i hate my family life.
i hate missing you.
i hate crying.
i hate wondering if you ever think about me.
i hate that nobody knows how i feel.
i hate that i pretend to be ok.
and then the next moment i break down.
its not like anyone is going to read this.
especially you.
i wonder if i could ever go back but i know i cant.
i cry to much.
i think that i am killing myself. not really but emotionally.
i am a HAPPY person .
this is just on one thing that kills me. it hurts me so.
this is why i hate this moment.
i hate knowing you dont want to talk to me.
i hate myself for trying so hard.
just make it go away...
