leading the half life again it seems.i am trying really hard to get my shit together.i passed my practical exam studying for my written. weird thing is i might get a promotion at work, i mean God do you really trust me that much.? i just have been under a lot of stress and i am just trying to take it one day at a time. It has been really hard lately. i know that i have been blessed to be able to see my mom but it has been such a toll on me too. 14 years in one week isnt enough. i cant believe that i broke down like that in front of Corynn. i really need to be nicer to her. i mean she knows a lot about me.!! its funny how i trusted Amanda sooo much with everything that i was and she had to just be better than me in front of her Boyfriend, fuck that! i need to go back to church like i used to. and that is what i am going to do i just need to focus on the things that i need to get done. the things that i want to do with my life i get so worried about everything instead of trusting God and just letting everything fall into play.
i hope that i do well on my test. i am trying everyday i am just trying my best. even when its not so great. see me thru God. its just you and me.
