its was nice being able to see him. Friday was a lot of fun i spent a lot of time with Tassanna. Thank you God that we are able to be close and that thru everything thing with David that she is confiding in me. thank you that i feel apart of them i feel like family and its overwhelming. sometimes i dont understand love even family love. its hard looking back at my life and trying to remember when i was happy or when i felt that family love. i feel it when i am with Tassanna and then of course when i am with the bookers they took me in and loved me. i am trying to accept this kind of love and just to forgive myself and not be so hard on everything that i do. Tassy and i dyed our hair it was fun just spending time with her. it doesnt matter what we do i just pray for more opportunities that i can spend with her. like going to the gym maybe.
Saturday i went running in the morning. i went to see my buck and we went to the river. he is so sweet he let me drive and he made a extra point to open my door the other day it was cute because i dont even really care about that. Sunday Amanda and i had to watch the preschoolers they are so incredibly cute.!
the one little boy said to amanda. TEACHER you forgot my prayer! lol and the little girl.. the lion went into the bathroom. i am a little worried about matthew. i need to keep an eye on him. i help amanda move into her new place! its really cute and i am so thankful for amanda she is such a good friend and we always have so much fun together we always have the funniest stories and we practically know everything about each other and i love how everything is clear.no more cookies for me! it was horrible i couldnt stop laughing and it was so bad this morning at work thank GOd i made it thru the day..
here for you by Eyedea and Abilites. made me feel so special. so special so special how can i feel so lucky. i have never felt this way before. please dont go away please dont leave my side. God please be with my attitude and Guard my words Guard my heart. help me focus and put you first. be with my thoughts and my heart. need to call mark and let him know i wont ge there for class because of the Keith Urban concert its on Friday.
i love my friends and life right now give me strength thank you for all that you do for me.\even if he doesnt love me back i dont care this time around because i dont want to be selfish. i should love someone just because they love me i want to love someone because of how i feel not based on someone elses actions. i want to have that Greater love. that i would be willing to risk my life for another. i dont know how long this will last i dont know how much time i have on this earth but i want to make the most of it. i want to leave some kind mark that i impacted just one person i would be happy.
so in my head i thinks of buck. i think i may scare him away if i told him that. but give my your perfect timing when to say it maybe 6 months together? lol ! we will see. that is.. criss cross apple sauce. lol amanda.
ni night forever.
