Relationships are so valuable, and it's easy to take them for granted. When people die, nobody wants to be surrounded with"things". That person wants to be surrounded by people who truly care for him and love him. It is extremely difficult to process the thought of knowing you will never be able to relate with anyone ever again, especially those you love. i just dont understand it...the innate, human desire to communicate, ask questions, and relate with someone who shares in your suffering will never be fullfilled especially in Hell. GOd its real. No matter who you are, whether famous or of great influnce or a nobody, it doesnt matter. You are truely alone amidst a sea of tormented souls..that just sounds horrible. and why wouldnt you want to go to heaven..

What if you're right?
And he was just another nice guy
What if you're right?
What if it's true?
They say the cross will only make a fool of you
And what if it's true?

What if he takes his place in history
With all the prophets and the kings
Who taught us love and came in peace
But then the story ends
What then?

But what if you're wrong?
What if there's more?
What if there's hope you never dreamed of hoping for?
What if you jump?
And just close your eyes?
What if the arms that catch you, catch you by surprise?
What if He's more than enough?
What if it's love?

What if you dig
Way down deeper than your simple-minded friends
What if you dig?
What if you find
A thousand more unanswered questions down inside
That's all you find?

What if you pick apart the logic
And begin to poke the holes
What if the crown of thorns is no more
Than folklore that must be told and retold?

You've been running as fast as you can
You've been looking for a place you can land for so long
But what if you?re wrong?


i know that i can feel Gods power and hand on my life. protecting me with all the stupid mistakes that i make, i want to be who i was. He is so powerful, its a good thing that he is a good and loving God. If you give most people a little earthly power, they become prideful, overconfident, and less compassionate. Yet God, yes God. has all power and still "is Love"
That doesnt mean that everything happens on the earth is His will. it does mean that everything is within His knowledge and control. Like the Lords Prayer, "Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven."

This girl has had to much on her mind. Yesterday Kevin and i were talking about death and dying. i dont want the people that i love to die. the sun and still shine behind a closed mind and i believe that to be true! whatever i have been thru God please let that shine. the good in me if you see any left. this is now i just dont understand why you would bring people into my life and then have things not be in constant renewal and growth and change. i want to be learning as much as i can in this life..i dont want to just go thru the motions.. i want to be a good example..


i love you soo much.so much.