wow. today i am such a loser. i mean i usually have the most amazing fun filled nights planned i am so good at planning them but i didnt plan it tonight my friend did and it all went to shit. girls just wanna have fun !!! ugh. we were suppose to go downtown, even my other girl friends invited me to go somewhere downtown too, and i said no to them because i would have felt bad to leave my first friend behind. and then she is the one to flake on me keep in mind that i waited for her and got ready in fact i was all ready to go makeup and all. so here i am at 1132 pm and a perfectly good drinkin sat night and i am sitting on my bed writing. how gay is that. lucky me. i even was fortunate enough to go get a smoothie at Jacknthebox. how awesome is that. Even my own boyfriend had plans tonight so i really just chillin by myself. maybe its just weird to be by myself because i havent been alone is so long.
i feel bad for my sister today. SHE IS GOING THRU SO MUCH RIGHT NOW. so yeaah. gosh
i love her so much and i want her to be happy and things get good for her and the next min its over. it makes me sad. she was suppose to come down this weekend too. i miss her so much she is the best ever and i havent seen her in so long it seems.
she always has the shitty situations..man. it just sucks.
last night was interesting. i was talking to amanda about really weird shit that i didnt think i would talk about. i kinda feels that she likes me because i told her that i have a thing for girls even tho i have a boyfriend. we were suppose to go to a gay bar tonight for her friends friend, and we didnt and shes like oh maybe another time we can go to that bar, and i said oh. i thought you were just going because of your friends, and shes like oh yeah. but i mean if you want to go and try something different we can go.. so that was weird for a sec. and besides we were in the spa last night it was just a weird convo. hmm. idk.
Ho and i have been together for a two years and 9 months today. we are suppose to go out tomoorororo. not even on today?
maybe a little bit. i hope Sunday is better than today.
hmm. this is the longest weekend ever. bottom line.
