christmas is in a few days i cant believe it.. this year has gone by so fast its crazy. so much has happened this year alone its makes me happy knowing the time is going by so fast because i know that i am happy. in fact things are getting better.. fast doesnt always mean good..ahaha cant win with this convo. :) need to get my windshield fixed. it bothering me.. trying to pay off my credit cards before my birthday and i wonder if i am going to make the date. i saw my friend from iraq Ronin the other day and he was so happy to see me. i went to the bay and saw gma she cut my hair and i got her some flowers. she loved em. :) Dads health hasnt been the best lately. he has been in the hospital twice now just within the last two months. he is worrying me. i love him so much i am so scared that i am going to lose him or something is going to happen to him.
i have been spending a lot of time here lately. it sucks that i am paying 5 hundred something for rent and i spend all my time here... i went to see aunt ruth and uncle jim...and gave them there presents. i want to make them a cup thingy same with gma and gpa that is a goal before my birthday too. i love amanda she is like my best friend nowadays. i cant believe that i have known her for like 8 years or some thing ... the first time i met her she was singing pdiddy and we were in the suzas huge suburban those songs about jlo. haa i cant believe that amanda is with kyle i just laugh at we go thru the same things at the same time.. i mean halloween her breaking up with charles me and ho then kyle then rebellious then teaching everything that is so funny. i cant believe it . she is real with me. :) i hope that she likes her christmas present. i went shopping in the bay got some new clothes and bucks christmas presents.not the big one tho. i really am never happy about christmas.i am never really excited about it. but this year for some reason i am . i think it was because it was a few months ago that buck said that we were going to spend christmas together and it was going to Our christmas together and that it was going to be us because i am a orphan and ever since then i have thought about what it would be like to have a christmas with him and have gotten actually really excited about it its weird...i wish that i could some shit done that i need to and spend more time with my aunt and grandparents ....l wish that i had more of the things that i really need and that i can use. it makes me think about asking her but i am just not sure.. but there is no problem in asking so i am going to see...around feb...
that is like the time limit for getting shit Done .. FEB... Dani is still just kinda doing her own thing .. i am really happy for her tho because i know that brent really makes her happy. i never have seen her so happy with someone .. lol it used to be me but i cant get her to laugh like that anymore.. lol it makes me think of how we are always quoting movies.those are some of my best memories with my sister. we used to be so close and i am sad because it has to deal with me and how much i have changed. i just got so busy and stopped calling her like i used to i have let our relationship fall by the wayside... i guess that i have failed in that area.. because she is not the only person who i have done this to .. Dad halley mom gma nicol called me and was so upset that i just gave up on our friendship. luckily amanda stayed by my side i hate that i didnt have a phone for a few weeks. i need a new phone. i really want to finish my book soon the movie is going to be coming out soon and i am soooo excited wwhich reminds me i should read :) i should be able to save a little just so i can get a new coach purse. i want one so bad.. i get 40% off next time i go in because the one that i have is damaged :) have to write later. not enough time..
